i always do this.

So, another year has rolled around and yet again I'm facing the prospect of sitting in a room full of sweaty bodies all doing the same thing. And I'm in no way prepared.

Goddamn. I mean, really. Why do I act this silly - is it really necessary? I end up actually wanting to revise, and not. Instead, I sit there, thinking about how I should be revising. And moping about that fact. Whereas it would be much more productive to just get up off my arse and do something... but I don't have the motivation. And I sit there thinking 'Hmm, you should be motivated. Do it! Do it now!' but I'm not motivated enough to pay any attention.

So basically I think 'let's do revision.' Then my second thoughts go 'well, you're not. you MUST.' My third thoughts then shout at me because I've been lazy enough to get this far. And then they get into an argument with my second thoughts, and I just sit on my haunches like a big ol' potato (if potatoes actually HAD haunches), and let them fight it out. Doing nothing in the meantime.

Goddamn, I suck.